Fandom: NCIS/TW crossover Pairing: Jack/Ianto, DiNozzo/Gibbs, DiNozzo/Ianto.
Disclaimer: I owe neither NCIS or Torchwood. I'm only doing this for fun. I am not making any money. Thanks to my beta Cath for pointing out my glaring mistakes, and of the small ones are mine alone.
Summary: Jack gets a call from an old friend and ends up in Washington DC where no one is happy to see him.I owe neither NCIS nor Torchwood. I wrote only for the fun of it and I do not make any money from it.I started this story before Children of Earth started so this is very AU Rating: R, some adult situations and swearing.
Home Part 20
“Ianto, are you all right?”
“I’m not sure to be honest with you. Honest? Ha, that’s a good one. Honest is not something either of us has really been is it? Me with my miraculous pregnancy and you with your longer than average life expectancy.”
“Can I explain?”
Ianto shook his head. “I don’t know. Can you?”
“I would like to.”
Ianto went and sat down at the rustic oak table that filled a corner of the kitchen. He held on tightly to his coffee; he wasn’t sure if he wanted to drink it, or throw it at Jack. “I’m waiting.”
“You aren’t going to make this easy, are you?”
“Didn’t know that was part of my job anymore? Thought it was to tell you when I thought you were being an ass?”
Jack pulled out a chair and sat down on the opposite side of the table. “There are a lot of parts of my past that I try very hard not to think about as I am sure you have parts of your past that you don’t want to tell me about. But my daughter isn’t something or someone I’m ashamed of. It’s just complicated as is so much of my life and past. In my defence, I tried to figure out I don’t know how many times ways to tell you about Melissa and Lucia.”
“Thought you said her name is Alice.”
“Explain, and make it good or Mae and I will be heading back to DC. I haven’t sold the shop yet.”
Jack jumped up. “No, this isn’t going to work, if every time I do something you can’t threaten to take Mae away from me. I went through this all before with Lucia. She got mad at me because I wouldn’t age, because I was more committed to Torchwood than her. I can’t fault her, I did want to find the Doctor but that was so I could finally commit to her and our little girl but now I know that nothing is going to change, what you see is what you are going to get for the rest of your life. I’m trying to not make the same mistakes but I need to know you’re going to be here and not run away again when things get tough.”
Ianto didn’t know what to say. He had never seen such passion or emotion come from Jack before. “You have no idea how much I wanted to hear you say these word Jack. When I found out that I was pregnant with Mae I wanted nothing more than to tell you but I had no idea where I stood with you. If I was nothing more than a piece of ass for you or someone you could ...”
“Love? Oh, Ianto, believe me, you are so much more than a lover, you have been the best friend I have had in all my endless years. You challenge me; you won’t let me get away with anything, whether it’s egg on my collar or my lack of dinosaur catching equipment.”
Ianto smiled at the memory of how they caught Myfanwy.
“I know I’m terrible at saying how I feel, but I do love you, and I love Mae,” Jack said reaching for Ianto’s hand. “We don’t have much time together, at least not in the scope of my life time; I don’t want you to spend even one moment of it doubting how I feel about you.”
Ianto wanted nothing more than to take Jack at his word but there was still a part of him that couldn’t let go of his doubts; that couldn’t believe Jack was willing to settle for him and a boring normal life on this little ball in space.
“But you don’t believe me,” Jack said, getting to his feet.
“Jack, wait, let me explain.” As Ianto got to his feet, his mobile rang.
“Who is it?”
Ianto glanced at the screen. “Tony,” he answered.
“Then I guess you had better take it. Tell him that you and Mae will be back there soon. I’ll just check on Mae before I head back to the hub.”
“Damn it, Jack, listen to me.” But Jack was out of the kitchen and down the hallway before he was able to get around the table.
“What?” Ianto snapped into the mobile.
“Am I interrupting something good, Ian?”
“Hardly. What can I do for you, Tony? Now isn’t the best of times. In fact, I’m not sure if you couldn’t have called at a worst one.”
“I’m sorry, I just wanted to thank you and the Captain for what or where you left me.”
“Don’t bother trying to pull a fast one on me. Whatever it was that you slipped us might work on normal people but I’ve had my head so scrambled with concussions and head slaps that it doesn’t work on me.”
Ianto was going to have to bring that up to Martha when she was feeling better.
“Besides,” Tony said bring Ianto back to the here and now. “You might have been able to get rid of most of the CCTV at the naval yard but you couldn’t get rid of it all, sunshine. We saw you two running away with Dr. Jones at the airport. But that wasn’t what I called you about, I figure you did what you had to do to protect you and yours and along that line I wanted you to know Jethro and I were able to get rid of all the DNA that Abby had of Mae’s. At least we think we did. She can be a little stingy with her medical stuff.”
Ianto let go of a deep breath he didn’t even know he had been holding. They had been in such a rush to get back to Cardiff that he never even thought about getting rid of all of Mae’s samples. He had been away from the Torchwood game along time.
“Thanks, it totally slipped my mine.”
“Figured you had other things on your mind and when we show up for the wedding I’ll expect an answer.”
Ianto sat down hard. “You might be waiting a very long time for an invitation.”
“Why? What happened?”
“I fucked up, that’s what happened. Jack told me something from his past and instead of feeling honoured that he decided to share with me I got angry because it was once again another reminder that Jack had a life, long before I came along.”
“Was it that bad what he told you?”
“He has a grown daughter, and she has a son of her own.”
“A bit of a shock I agree but enough to end things?”
“No, but I then threatened to head back to DC with Mae and he seemed so defeated. His daughter’s mom did the same thing. I would never take Mae away from Jack but I was pissed off I used the only thing against him I have. One day back here and I feel just as lost as I did before Mae came along. I hated feeling like that, like I didn’t matter. Like all I am is a bed warmer.”
“Is that what Jack said?”
“No,” Ianto sighed. “He told me he loved me.”
“And this is bad?”
“Not exactly, I just wish he would have said it before Mae came along.”
“Maybe he didn’t know until you had left that is how he feels?” Tony suggested.
Ianto shrugged, quickly realizing Tony couldn’t see it. “Perhaps but still...”
“I don’t know.”
“Look Ian, I have no idea what is going on between you and Harkness, but what I do know if that you don’t get many chances in this life time.”
“Unless you’re Jack,” Ianto said.
“Okay, I’ll give you that but for the rest of us life is way too short. If you found someone to love and who better yet loves you back, grab them and don’t let go. I never thought there was a hope in hell that Jethro did more than tolerate me but thanks to you and your little stunt of throwing us into bed together.”
“Well thank him for me. I know you were content back here, Ian. I mean Ianto but there was always a part missing and now I know it was Jack. Do you really think you could let him go without a fight? Do you want to?”
“No, but how do I trust a person who doesn’t or can’t tell me everything?”
“Have faith in love?”
“Faith? I might have used all of mine up a long time ago.”
“Then find more or be a miserable bastard all your life,” a voice growled over the phone.
“Gibbs?” Ianto asked.
“Yeah, now go get your man and let me get mine. You have everything anyone in this world could want Jones, a person to love and a beautiful girl. Take what is being given and be damn grateful for it.”
Before Ianto could answer the phone went dead.
He took a deep breath and headed up stairs. He knew both men were right, he had the chance for a life most people will kill for. The problem was if he couldn’t keep it, it would probably kill him.
He could hear Jack’s voice as he reached the landing. He slowly put his head around the corner of the first door. He could see the big captain leaning over the baby cot; Mae was still asleep.
“I’ll do my best baby to keep an eye on you and your tad, even if he doesn’t want me near. I messed up big time, Maeghan. I thought if I didn’t get close to anyone then when they were gone it wouldn’t hurt but it didn’t work with your tad. I missed him so much, and only to get him back and to find out about you to lose both of you all over it more than I can take.”
“Then fight for us.”