Fandom: NCIS/TW crossover Pairing: Jack/Ianto, DiNozzo/Gibbs, DiNozzo/Ianto.
Disclaimer: I owe neither NCIS or Torchwood. I'm only doing this for fun. I am not making any money. Thanks to my beta Cath for pointing out my glaring mistakes, and of the small ones are mine alone.
Summary: Jack gets a call from an old friend and ends up in Washington DC where no one is happy to see him.I owe neither NCIS nor Torchwood. I wrote only for the fun of it and I do not make any money from it.I started this story before Children of Earth started so this is very AU Rating: R, some adult situations and swearing.
Home Chapter 21
Jack turned around and looked at Ianto. “Fight for you? How?”
“Tell me what you’re feeling. Tell me why you let me walk away. You and I were on the way out long before I found out I was expecting Mae. You just seemed to want me to go away.”
“God, no. I never wanted you to leave but Ianto; I have nothing to offer you and that hasn’t changed. I am the worst choice you could ever make in a partner. I have a dangerous career. I never get time away. People who spend any time near me have a lower than average life expectancy.”
“Way to sell yourself.”
“You’ve never had any illusions about me Ianto. So why should I start creating any now. In fact, it was one of the things that made you so attractive to me. You knew how shallow and self centered I could be and that I’ve had to do some damn horrible things to keep the world safe. You knew what I did for a living and about my immortality problem and you still kept coming back for more. You have no idea how many times I thought to myself that I should slip you enough retcon to wipe away the last few years and give you the life you deserve. But I was too selfish. When you left I figured you finally came to your senses and decided to stop throwing your life away on me.”
“You should have known I wouldn’t have left you without a good reason. Part of me kept wishing you would show up; demanding to know why I left. I thought I was doing the right thing.”
Jack looked down at his sleeping girl. He felt another part of his heart that he had held closed for so long open up. “You had the best of reason for going. I did try to find you when you first went missing. I was distraught. I thought something or someone had taken you but Martha finally convinced me that you left on your own. I always thought she knew more but damn she’s good at playing innocent.”
“I begged her to keep things quiet. Even though she thought I was making the biggest mistake ever. I won’t admit this to her but she probably was right. I should have told you, Jack. I never should have kept Mae a secret. Even if things had blown up and all my fears were right, we both would have known the truth.”
“If you had stayed I might never have realized how much I love you and what you truly mean to me. But that doesn’t change the fact that for your own good I should let you both go. Let you have a life without me, a normal life.”
Jack hurried over to Ianto and took him in his arms when he heard a gasp of protest. “But I can’t. I can’t let you go. When Lucia left and took our little girl I hated it but I let her go because I knew there was always a possibility of leaving if... when I found the doctor. And I knew deep down inside that they were better off away from me, away from Torchwood and all the death I brought. When you left I told myself the same thing that you were better off without Torchwood, and me. That this way you would at least see your thirtieth birthday. But now that you’re back, now that I have you in my arms again and I know about Mae. I just don’t know how to let you go. Please tell me how to fight for you.”
Ianto wrapped his arms around Jack and held him tight. “You just did. You have never told me any of this stuff before. I think this might be the longest conversation we have ever had.”
Jack smiled. “Well, I usually had other things on my mind when I was with you.”
Ianto rolled his eyes. “Later. I have a feeling the minute we get started anything, our little girl will interrupt.”
Jack wanted to ask Ianto if she had done that to him and Tony but he caught his tongue before he opened his mouth. The past was the past and if anyone had a reason to doubt his faithfulness, it was Ianto but all he seemed to want was to just get on with the future.
“Something wrong?” Ianto asked.
“A little green monster was threatening to appear but I beat him back.”
“Guess there are going to be moments like that for both of us.”
Jack pulled Ianto closer. “As long as we can agree to get through it together.”
“For as long as we are together.”
“And we’re going to make sure that it’s going to be for a very long time. As far as I’m concerned I don’t want you near the hub at all. You are going to be as ignorant as Rhys was before that damn space whale came along. I’m going to find enough staff so that I can be home every night unless there is a big emergency or invasion.”
“I want back in.”
Jack let go of Ianto. He studied the younger man. “Before we left America you were telling me that you wanted nothing to do with Torchwood; now you want me to hire you back?”
“Just about any damn body!”
They both looked to make sure that Jack hadn’t woken Mae up. Just to make sure their daughter didn’t arise, Jack led Ianto out into the landing where he could get louder if he had to. “I won’t put you in that kind of danger. I can’t lose you not after I just got you back.”
Ianto put a hand on his. “Jack, think about it, and listen to what I’m going to say, please?”
“Fine, I’ll listen but I’m not going to like it, of that I’m sure.” He crossed his arms over his chest. He knew he was being a bastard but he had already told Ianto if he could, he would send him away for his own good.
“Well, as long as you’re going to be open-minded about it,” Ianto said. “I’m not talking about becoming a field agent again. I was thinking more about support staff.”
“You want to go back to being the teaboy?”
“Well, I was thinking I would be more than that. I can only imagine what shape the hub is in after I’ve been gone for so long but I was thinking about Mae too.”
“What about her?”
“Well, let’s face it, the minute I see flying saucers over the bay or zombies walking the streets again where else would I head but for you and the hub? So, why not cut out the middle man and just be there instead of wandering around in the middle of the city.”
“You want to keep Mae at the hub?”
“Only during work hours and not just her. If we get our wish she might have a sister or brother. And from what you told me, she just might not be the only baby. I’m sure Gwen and Martha will want to start a family some time soon. And eventually, the kids would have to go to school. Don’t you think it would be better if Mae had a school where she could say her daddy carried her and her sibling without us getting a call from the headmaster?”
“Ianto... You... No.”
“That’s the best argument you can come up with?”
“No,” Jack said, folding his arms over his chest. “I’ll come up with something better.”
Ianto leaned over and gave his cheek a gentle peck. “You know it makes sense.”
Jack did, but he wasn’t going to let it go that easily.
“If you have anywhere near the mood swings I had everyone at the hub is going to be calling me every minute to come take care of you. This way I’ll be there to make you coffee. Decaf of course, and get you those biscuits you like, and throw in a back rub or two in between looking after Mae and any others. And wouldn’t that be nice too. You can come see Mae whenever you like. You two need to have lots of time together. Try to fix some of the damage I did by keeping her away from you. Sorry-”
Jack pulled Ianto close to him, giving his temple a kiss. “Enough of that. You don’t have to apologize, we both missed the mark. All that matters is that you’re here. That you’re both here with me and we are about to start a life together as a family.”
“We aren’t going anywhere, I promise.” Ianto laid his head against Jack’s shoulder.
“Are you sure you want to go back to Torchwood?”
“I do but if you don’t want me there.”
“I want you everywhere and anywhere I can get you, you know that,” Jack said with a wink. “But I need to find a way to keep the both of you safe.”
“So no? You want to keep me away?”
“No, I don’t. As much as I hate to admit it you’re right.”
“Can you say that again? I don’t think I’ve ever heard you say that before.”
“Keep being a smart ass and the only thing you’re going to hear is my hand against your ass.”
“Promises,” Ianto said with a laugh.
“Later, but for now we have to figure out how we’re going to make the hub a safer place for everyone. We may have to look at putting in some kind of warning system that would ring here. Perhaps even a secondary server; just in case we can’t get to the hub. But I think the best way to make everyone safer would be to have more competent people working for Torchwood. That way we could have regular shifts and it would allow us time to keep up with training; instead of having to do it all in the field.”
“How about you check on Mae, and I’ll go make us some fresh coffee and we can make a plan. If I know Gwen and Martha, they’ll want all the answers before they can even think up the questions.”
Jack hadn’t even answered before Ianto was heading downstairs. He opened up the door slowly. It had been a long time since he had to sneak in on a baby. That brought up a pang of sorrow; partly for what he missed with Maeghan but also for the time he lost with Melissa. She was now called Alice and had a little boy of her own but she was still his little girl and always would be. But he was no longer dad, and would never be grandpa; he was Uncle Jack.
He had no idea how he was going to bring this up to Alice but he had to tell her about her sister and any other potential siblings. Not to mention Ianto and that they were getting married.
He knew he was courting future heartaches but the last two years without Ianto had already been hell. At least with the younger man around they could make the memories he hoped would sustain him once Ianto was gone.
He leaned over the crib; he gently ran a finger through the blond curls. Mae snuggled into his touch. Jack felt his heart swell a little bit more. He couldn’t believe he had been given this miracle. “I promise baby, I am going to make mistakes but loving you and your tad enough will never be one of them. I am going to do whatever it takes to keep you and Ianto safe. And no matter how many times you try to push me out of your life when you get older I am not going to let it happen without the biggest fight you ever saw. I know it’s going to be hard on all of us that I won’t get older but I am not going to let go.”
Jack heard Ianto call.
“I better move; the last thing I want is cold coffee.” Jack gave his princess a kiss, tucked the pink blanket around her and headed back to his man.