geekyRating: MA 15+
Fandom: Torchwood
Genre: AU/ Romance
Pairings: Jack/Ianto
Spoilers None. AU but the names of the Episodes are mentioned
Summary: There is a new Boss for Torchwood Cardiff.
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Torchwood- Copyright BBC.
beta’d by the wonderful wanda1969
‘thoughts are in italics and single quotes’
Chapter Fifteen
“Ianto, what’s wrong? Tell me - can I help you, let me help you.” pleaded Jack.
He held Ianto, pulling him tight to his chest, feeling Ianto’s heart beating fast. Jack was scared. “Tell me - I can help you,” pleaded Jack . ‘What is wrong? How can I help him?’ he thought.
“Ianto, sweet, talk to me, I will do everything I can to help - but you need to tell me what’s wrong, what you need.”
Ianto had his face in crook of Jack’s neck, breathing in his scent, ‘You make me feel........... safe.’ With his face and lips against his neck it was hard for Jack to understand what Ianto said, as he talked.
“By tissue you! Did you just say by tissue you? Come on sweet, I want to help, you need to tell me what’s wrong?” soothed Jack.
Ianto pulled away and looked at Jack.
He took a deep breath.
“Jack, I think, I’m falling for you, and that is something I didn’t want to happen. I’ve had a broken heart before, and I swore that I would never, ever, let anyone do that to me again, or to let anyone close. I didn’t think I minded a ‘fling’ - not the sort of think I’d usually do. I thought I could, I could do that - but I don’t think I can can more. I could love you, but I don’t think it’s wise. You, you’re just passing through. You flirt with everyone, everyone wants you, I don’t think I could just do a fling with you. I’ve just found out I’m a one person sort of guy. That is just who I am. I’ve tried not to be, but it always ends up like this: with me being a big girl and scaring them off. I can’t do that anymore, so the big falling out is happening today, before we take it too far, and I fall into my old habits, I can’t do that. No. I won’t let that happen again.” Ianto looked shocked by what he said, blushed and looked down, pushing himself away from Jack.
Jack looked at Ianto, held out his arms and pulled Ianto back into his embrace, holding tight, kissing him gently.
“Oh, Yan, I would never do anything to hurt you. I.... I don’t know what I feel exactly, but I do feel for you. I’ve had a few - don’t raise your eyebrow at me - alright lots of...... bed mates - some long term, some just come and go, but I believe..... I hope there is someone for me, who will tame me, make me want to put down roots, to do domestic. I really want that, and I hope to find it. I think I might find it with you. I know I flirt, but that’s just my way of getting things done, keeping it fun, putting people off balance. I never want to hurt you. I can’t say that I’d never hurt you, like you can’t say you would never hurt me, we are both human, and fallible. I know I probably will hurt you, and you at some stage will probally hurt me, it’s what we do, we’re humans. We try to do the right thing and we fail. Ianto... I think I’m falling for you too. I want you, I need you, I.... sound like a cheesy song lyric. But I do, do want to be with you, to find out if we work. Being with you seems right. I want to spend time with you - will you let me? Please don’t cut and run, I want you.”
“We sound like girls, Jack.”
“Yeah, we do, talking about our feelings, we’ll have to do each other’s hair and nails next - fancy bright red nail polish?”
Ianto pushed Jack over, sprawling over him as he lay on the bed.
“Are you going to stay in Wales? I know you are on a contract, but I’ve no idea how long.”
“I have a contract, it got sent to me 3 days ago. Torchwood is offering me a 3 year contract as manager with another 3 year option. That, of course, is if I manage the place well, but with you running the place, I don’t even need to turn up to work - you do most of it for me. I’ll be here for at least 3 years, as I had planned to sign it. There’s much about Cardiff I want to get to know better, and there are other reasons why I want to stay around,too” Jack kissed Ianto, “Oh yes, a very delicious reason to stay. I’ve never asked about you. You are a great PA, but you have so many skills. Why a PA?”
“I like variety, like to organize, as you’ve found out. PA ing does both. I’m always organizing, making it all work. I manage you and most of all the heads of areas as well. The work at Torchwood is interesting. I enjoy it and get satisfaction for it all working smoothly. I’m a trained archivist. My plan was to do this until an archiving job came up. But when it did, I didn’t want to move. Suzie, before you, needed so much organizing, she was good at her job, but was’t good at time management and getting the paperwork done - it was a bit full on at the beginning, but I feel I trained her well.”
Jack’s eyebrows went up at that comment.
“Yeah, I reckon she will be able to organize herself and the new baby now. The question will be, will I be able to train you?”
Jack laughed. “You try can train me, but I’m not good at jumping through hoops.” He kissed Ianto’s lips, “So Ianto, do you want to see if we can make this... us... work?”
“Jack.... I want to try.”
The smiled at each other, kissing gently and holding each other, losing themselves, until the alarm sounded, the real world and work bringing them back to the reality.