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06 March 2013 @ 09:10 pm
I was wrong  
Title : I was wrong
Summary: I want you. Not quite the three words he had expected, but Ianto wasn't sure it was such a bad thing.
Rating: All Ages
Categories: Torchwood
Characters: Ianto Jones, Jack Harkness

Pairing : Ianto Jones/Jack Harkness
Genres: Romance.
Warnings: None
Disclaimer: All publicly recognizable characters, settings, etc. are the property of their respective owners. The original characters and plot are the property of the author. The author is in no way associated with the owners, creators, or producers of any media franchise. No copyright infringement is intended.

Author's Notes: Comments and reviews are still highly welcome. Special thanks to my wonderful beta reader welsh_scotsman.

I was wrong

Ianto looked at Jack surreptitiously. Laid on his side and tracing lazy patterns across Ianto’s chest, he was thinking so hard, that it was almost deafening. He couldn’t help asking : "What are you thinking ?" .

Jack lay down on his back, and looked at the ceiling, before letting out a sigh.

"I was thinking I was wrong."

Ianto raised himself on an elbow and glared at him.

"Jack, stop it. How many times do I have to say it to you : there is nothing wrong with you. You are not wrong." He replied more harshly than he had intended to.

Jack smiled and shook his head, slightly amused by Ianto's vehemence.

"Not what I meant."

He paused and took a deep breath before adding, still avoiding Ianto's gaze :

"Before I left with the Doctor, I thought all I needed was him. I was convinced that if I could find him, he would fix me and bring my former life to me, so I could be the man I used to be again and it would be as if nothing had ever happened."

Ianto stayed still, not daring to make a move whilst Jack was confiding. He never talked about his disappearence. Sometimes, he made vague allusions to it, but he never properly talked about what had happened to him, and Ianto had never dared to ask.

Jack shifted closer and finally turned his face towards him.

"Now, I know I was wrong. I will never be that man anymore. Things have changed. I have changed. I waited for the Doctor for at least two hundred years, but I never missed him half as much as I missed all of it : Cardiff, the Hub, my team... I even missed that bloody rift and its stream of alien rubbish. It took me a whole year to fully realize it, but I know it for sure, now : all I need, really need, is right here. Oh yes, I still love the Doctor and I will always be there for him. But I don't need him, not anymore." He paused. "I didn't lie when I said I came back for you."

Plucking up courage, Ianto made up his mind to ask shyly :

"You need me ?"


The answer was blunt and Ianto's heart sank in his chest. He took the blow and was about to put an end to this painful conversation, but before he had a chance to, Jack added :

"I don't need you. I want you."

It took Ianto's brain a few seconds to fully register the possible meaning of what he had just heard. He stared at Jack’s blue eyes, looking for the lust that usually came with those three words, but what he read in them stunned him : there wasn't the tiniest hint of desire in them, well, not that kind of desire. Instead, all he found was utter seriousness with a glimpse of determination.

I want you.

Not quite the three words he had expected for so long, but Ianto wasn't sure it was such a bad thing.

I want you.

Three words. Just three words, but so much was said in those words. So much more than he had ever hoped.

I want you.

Jack's words talked about betrayal and forgiveness. They talked about choices and sacrifices. Jack hadn't came back because he had to, but because he wanted to. Maybe for the first time since he had became immortal, Jack hadn't just undergone events. He had made a choice and his choice hadn't been the Doctor or Gwen or anyone else. It had been Ianto, just Ianto.

"Do you want me too ?" Jack asked with an unsteady voice.

Coming back to reality, Ianto drew him into his arms and held him tightly.

"Yes, Jack. I want you. I want you."

Current Location: In my bed
Current Mood: tiredtired
Current Music: Hand of Sorrow by Within Temptation
Stories from the Spore Drive: no workyiantojjackh on March 6th, 2013 09:56 pm (UTC)
Aww so sweet. Love that whole distinction between need and want. Great job
nightchild78: missnightchild78 on March 7th, 2013 08:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you. Once I said to my husband that I didn't need him. He was miffed, but when I added I wasn't with him because I needed him but because I wanted him, he was suddenly the happiest man in the world. :)

Edited at 2013-03-08 05:38 pm (UTC)
blossomlegs: pic#90827250blossomlegs on March 6th, 2013 09:59 pm (UTC)
Beautiful! Nicely done! Thanks for sharing!
nightchild78: missnightchild78 on March 7th, 2013 08:14 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I'm glad you like it.
Who?Muse: TW Ianto Profile Burgundy Shirttardisjournal on March 6th, 2013 10:32 pm (UTC)
Very sweet! For Jack, that's saying quite a bit. I'm glad Ianto was able to appreciate it for what it's worth. <3<3
nightchild78: missnightchild78 on March 7th, 2013 08:16 pm (UTC)
Thank you. Ianto is a smart guy and he knows how to read between the lines.

Edited at 2013-03-09 08:09 pm (UTC)
Nancy: Myfanwynancybrown on March 7th, 2013 03:09 am (UTC)
nightchild78: missnightchild78 on March 7th, 2013 08:22 pm (UTC)
Thank you for taking time to comment. :)
lazy_8s: colourlazy_8s on March 7th, 2013 03:45 pm (UTC)

Lovely, and angsty, with a slice of hope......all the perfect ingredients of a fantastic Janto fic. And, this did not disappoint at all. :)
nightchild78: missnightchild78 on March 7th, 2013 08:29 pm (UTC)
Thank you for your nice comment. Jack and ianto are wonderful ingredients, the challenge is to find the good recipe. I'm glad it works for you.
It All Comes Back to the Breathjo02 on March 8th, 2013 11:59 pm (UTC)

This is such a truthful conversation, especially from Jack's side, and I wish we had seen it in canon. Thank you.
nightchild78: missnightchild78 on March 9th, 2013 08:08 pm (UTC)
Thank you. I'm glad it sounds good for you. I'm not very comfortable with dialogues. There is so much I wish I had seen in canon. *sigh* "If you want something done right, do it yourself". ;-)
black59: Diddle Livreblack59 on March 17th, 2013 06:56 pm (UTC)
nightchild78: missnightchild78 on March 17th, 2013 07:38 pm (UTC)
Merci beaucoup ! Je suis vraiment très heureuse de constater que j'ai également des lecteurs français et qu'ils aiment ce que je fais. Les commentaires en français sont bien sûr les bienvenus. :)
black59: Diddle Livreblack59 on March 30th, 2013 10:03 pm (UTC)
oh!! merci.